2016 Here we go…

Wow, what a start into the new year.

I am proud to say that since November 1st I am down 20lb. I managed to loose weight over the toughest part of the year. But with planning it all paid off and I am more determined than ever to keep going.

I also am toying with the idea of becoming NASM certified again as I do miss being a Trainer. I loved being a personal Trainer and helping others to achieve their goals. But first I must loose a little bit more weight and I would like to learn more from my Trainer Gabriel at Holy Fit in Austin.
He is amazing and I love his support and how he is always there for me. I do online training with him. I think he has spidey senses, cause he always knows when I need a pick me up message.

At the beginning of the year people always make resolutions, I am a bit weary about them since I never seem to be able to actually do them, so I made a list of things I would like to accomplish this year.

  • Spend more time with my kids and husband
  • Loose 80 more lb and fit into my size 10 clothes again
  • Run and finish the Texas Ren Fair Mud Run
    • I signed up for this, now I just need to train on climbing, running and crawling
  • Save enough money to go to the Supernatural Convention in Vancouver in August
I think these are all very obtainable things, I don’t want to set myself up for failure. I know I am doing the right things. I am eating cleaner and better then I ever have, I found my passion for working out again, my depression is manageable, it rears it’s ugly head every so often (like today) but the good days out weigh the bad by miles. 
I am so blessed to have such an amazing support system, my family and friends are amazing. The anger I have towards myself, for letting myself become what I had become is lessening a lot. So this year I wanna make as positive as possible. I want to love myself again no matter what size I am, you know why? I am healthy. I may not be able to run 5K (yet) but I walk it under an hour. And I probably can out last some of the snobby meat heads at the gym easily, since I do 4 rounds of 15-20 reps with my weights. 
I think I am on the right path to find true happiness this year. 
Much love and light

I am not on a DIET…

So I am at the end of week 2 of my lifestyle change. So far so good, I am down 6lb. as of today which I am very happy with.

The reason I am writing this post, people are asking me: “What diet are you doing?” “What diet are you on?” or  saying things like “Oh good luck on your diet”

I am NOT on a DIET!!!!!

I am making life style changes, I am changing my eating habits, I choose to eat healthy. I choose to go to the gym 5 days a week and work my ass off, literally.
But no I am not on a DIET.

I have been heavy all my life, and I have done more diets, then I can count on. Then in 2006 I changed my lifestyle, eating habits, workout regimen and suddenly I had lost 80lb. I even became a personal trainer and loved it.  Then shit happened in life and I got sucked into a very unhealthy friendship, that took it’s toll on my health and environment. After 4 years I finally saw the light and broke it off, but I also was 80lb. heavier again, suffering from depression and anxiety. I have been trying for 3 years to loose the weight with diets. But my head never was in it 100%.

So DIET is a bad word for me and I am pretty sure others like me. This time I am not on a DIET, this time I want it to stick, form new eating habits, and loose the old ones. It won’t be easy, but I know I can do it, as I have done it before.


Wednesday… Kick it in the ass

So today is Wednesday as you probably gathered from the title of this.
I woke up a bit grumpy and then realized it’s Wednesday, I felt tired this morning, I didn’t wanna go to the gym. I think Wednesday also known as day 3, 10, 17 etc. is the hardest day for people to find motivation to go to the gym. Why is that?
Well you did a hard workout on Monday and Tuesday and by Wednesday you body yells at you WTF? Stop!!! Leave me alone!!! But don’t listen to it. You are in this for the long haul. You are kicking it in the ass.
I actually went to work ( I print T-shirts among other things) and as I pulled up, my trainer calls me and told me that I can do this. That I can kick Wednesday in the ass. I had also weighed this morning and was up a lb. It’s ok, I looked at it and decided not to sweat it. (pun intended) Cause it’s a number on the scale and not how I feel. So after the pep talk I got, I felt better about Wednesday. It was a good thing I tweeted, that is why he called me.
So I finished work and then went to the gym. I did the whole workout (wasn’t able to do it last week) and I felt good. When I was looking in the mirror, I saw a strong women getting stronger. I was able to see myself for the first time in a very long time and I smiled. My arms feel like pudding and I swear I will have the best triceps ever. But I smiled, cause I liked the person I saw in the mirror. Not what she looked like, but what she represented. And that has been a very long time since that happened.
I am looking at my Gym time as some Therapy as well. I get to dwell on things and think about things and then just let them go with every drop of sweat that is leaving and it feels great.

SO, for all you Wendesday People, GO KICK IT IN THE ASS 🙂