4 weeks post op and the struggle is still real…

as you know 4 weeks ago I had surgery to remove a bones spur on top of my foot, it had been agitating me for 4 years. Well we are 4 weeks in and I haven’t not made it back to the gym as my foot keeps swelling.  As you can see in the picture, that was Friday (sorry for the terrible pedicure, but Ihaven’t been able to go). I am trying to elevate as much as I can, but I have work that has to be done and with a store opening soon, this is really putting a damper on things.

My food is ok, I haven’t been logging which I am changing today and I am trying to be better at my water intake. I have neglected that as well. My weight is fluctuating between 246 and 243, after this weekend (I had a convention, brought most of my food, but made decent choices) I have to get back to it. I hate not being able to do what I want/need to do for work and my body. I am trying to stay positive and but I can slowly feel the depression creeping up and I don’t want that. 
Also Today, 4 years ago I decided to end a 4 yrs friendship with a woman that abused, my good nature and took bits an pieces of me. It has been a very long road to build myself up again. But I am getting there. I have a pretty successful business, I am about to open a store with an amazing business partner and go on a new adventure. 
This weightloss Journey has done wonders for me, my self confidence has become stronger, (work in progress) I actually like some pictures of me, like this one. It was taken at the Renaissance Fair with my husband and I don’t look like a beached whale.
I still have a long ways to go, but Rome wasn’t build in one day and trying to find what was lost is taking a while, but it’s getting better, I have more days that are bright and filled with laughter, then the dark grey ones. And that is the goal. I know I live with the depression and the anxiety (both caused by the stress of aformentioned friendship) but I can manage it and live with it. Also this healthy lifestyle has contributed to the healing and the process. So me not being able to work out and blow off some steam is putting a damper on, but this time I know I can do it. I have an amazing support netwok and cheerleaders in my camp. And that is what counts. 
So please #alwayskeepfighting cause you story is not over yet… 
Much love,
Claudia

Rest Day is important and also a little rant…

I am really starting to enjoy this blogging thing. Cause I can write when something annoys me without getting a bunch angry people at me.

So rest Day… I do Active Recovery, where you are going for a walk, cause you cant take it any longer sitting at home, or a hike or do some other activity. Yesterday was technically a rest day for me, but I went to the Renaissance Fair and walked 4.4miles thru out the day. I am feeling it a bit.
You can also rest when you are really sore. I had to do that a couple of weeks ago, I woke up and was so sore I could barely walk, that is when my body told me, You need to stop for today.
Also drink lots of water, it will help flush the Toxins that were released during your workout. Also don’t forget to stretch and foam roll during your Rest day. It will help the recovery process.

Now comes my other rant… I saw someone post on Instagram their Food Prep picture and the caption was EAT FOR FUEL, NOT FOR FLAVOR.
This struck a cord with me. I wanna eat flavorful meals. I don’t wanna eat bland food everyday. I see those meal preps and I think to myself, how BORING… How can you the exact same food every single day for a week? Well I can’t cause I would not be staying on meal plan.
Healthy food and foods that are good for you do not have to be Boring or Bland. All the recipes I post for dinner don’t take more time then 30-45 minutes. Cause I wanna eat with my family and spend time with them after. I don’t wanna spend hours in the kitchen. So No you can eat healthy foods and they can be flavorful.
I eat about 1700 Calories a day. I love Pampered Chef’s Southwest Seasoning, I used it in my omelet in the morning, a half a teaspoon has 15mg of sodium. And that is all I put on my omelet, I use salt very sparingly. In my homemade Salad Dressing I use Pampered Chef’s Herb de Provence which has 0 sodium but tons’ of flavors.

Be adventurous, try new seasonings, I love dill on my salmon. I put mustard and paprika on my Pork Chops and Chicken, these are all things you can do to make your meals full of flavor.

As a Teenager I did not know how to cook or had any inkling of learning to cook and now I love it, heck I make up my own recipes. So the one thing I can tell you. Don’t be afraid to try a recipe and cook something.

Go and have fun in the Kitchen… it’s an Adventure.

~ Claudia

Healthy Superbowl? Yes Please…

I love a good get together, so we are having friends over for Superbowl Sunday. Can you make it healthy? YES ! of course, cause I don’t wanna blow my hard work that I did this week by counting my calories and the workout in the gym. So here is our Menu for Sunday:

Chili with Kidney Beans
Chips and Salsa
Veggies and Hummus
Buffalo Cauliflower
Zucchini Brownies

I don’t have to eat the chip and the Salsa and since I am making the Chili I know what is in there and I can track it.

Other great alternatives are baked chicken tenders, fruit salad, yogurt dips.

If you can, stay away from fried foods, beer, Queso, Cookies, Chips, Ranch Dressing.

But if you can’t just make sure you hit the Gym hard on Monday.

What I really like about my Journey so far is that I am not on a diet, I completely changed the way I eat. Food is no longer a challenge. I go out and eat at restaurants, and I make better choices, but it doesn’t keep my from living my life. It doesn’t restrict my life anymore.

So please make good choices 😀

Saturday Musings on the past week…

This past week has been a bit rough.

I wasn’t feeling so well on Thursday and Friday. I had a night mare on Thursday that I woke up from and I could not shake it and then in the afternoon I started to feel like I was getting sick, headache, runny nose and cold. I could not get my body temp right. I am wondering if it has something to do with my body getting enough Vitamin D now. As I was diagnosed to have Vitamin D deficiency.
I also noticed this is Week 3 now since I am taking it and I started to have dreams again and remembering them. Which is sometimes really cool, sometimes not so much.
So Thursday was also the day my legs told me that they would appreciate it, if we were not to workout. So I did a rest day. I also was in bed by 8:30pm.

Friday I woke up feeling better but still not 100%, but I made myself go for a walk once it was warmer and that turned into my regular 5K walk and I beat my best time as well I got it done in 57minutes.
The rest of the day wen’t well.  Well ok I am lying I got on the scale in the morning and was not happy as I was at 266.2 I still had lost half a lb from the previous week. But instead of eating my weight in chocolate I went for that walk.
Then last night we had family for Dinner and I was content and happy.

Today my husband got up at the crack of dawn and ran a 15K, yes he is a runner and is running his first half marathon next weekend and I am very proud of him, but I got woken up and could not get back to sleep. But I decided to stay in bed anyways. Well I was futzing around to late to go to the Combat class at the gym. So I decided to workout in our driveway and modify the workout my trainer gave me to fit the equipment I have here at the house. It was not easy.

Then after that I got to do what I love the most, is hanging out with my husband and run errands with no kids. It’s my favorite thing. And I got a new pair of Cross Trainer Shoes, I didn’t know Under Armour makes shoes, but I tried them on, they fit like a glove and came home with me. I did have to buy a size 9, cause the 8.5 were to small. But I got them.

Then for Dinner we were supposed to have Chicken Gyros, well I forgot to take the chicken out of the feezer, so we had Sirloin Tip Steak and I made a killer creamy mushroom sauce to go with it.Gluten Free and Dairy Free.

I hope this coming week will be a bit better. I am really happy with this Journey so far and in two week I get to Hug Jared Padalecki 😀 cause my wonderful husband got me a Photo Op for Valentine’s Day. How awesome is that?

Here is to a better week.

12 weeks ago…

I started this Journey with a guy named Gabriel from Holyfit.

He was recommended to me by a friend of mine who had an awesome tranformation.

When I signed up with Gabriel he said, the only thing I ask, is that you give me 12weeks.
So here we are 12 weeks later.

I started this journey on November 1st at 281lb. I was at my highest in August of 2015 at 285lb. So this morning I got on the scale and it told me that I weighed 255.2lb. I thought I was dreaming. that meant I had lost 26lb. since November. I also lost a total of 18″ over all and 6″ alone around my umbilicus. I dropped my body fat by 5% (it’s still way to high, but hey)

So yes, I can only recommend this amazing man, he ignited the passion for health and fitness in me again and I am every greatful for it and I will keep training with him till I hit my goal of 180lb. and maybe go even farther.

Thank you Gabriel.

I also wanna thank my husband for his continued support and also for getting healhty with me. I also thank my kids for being my Cheer team, I love you very much.
And thank you to all of my family and friends that keep encouraging me.

Let’s see what the next 12 weeks bring. <3

Keep lifting

Claudia

An Open letter to the guy that gave me nasty looks at the gym today…

So I noticed before that some of the really buff guys give me these looks like “WTF are you doing at the gym?” I know the difference, cause I actually have talked to some of the “buff” guy and they are really nice and think it’s great that I am back in the gym and lift and am not normally intimidated by them.
But some guys you know, cause I smile at everybody at the gym, even if I am pouring sweat, I have a smile, cause you know what? I makes me feel good and the person I smile at as well. But then there are these guys that don’t smile back. They just give you that look. And I’ve gotten those looks even when I was a Trainer.

So this is a letter for the guy today that could not wait for me to be done with my Deadlifts…

Dear Buff Guy,

first off, I have been watching you the past couple of weeks, you and your girlfriend feeling entitled to just make yourself at home at the gym. You drop you bags whereever, using ab machines to keep you bag off the floor. Ever considered that other members might use those machines?
Also yeah I used the bar today to do my circuit and yes, it was only loaded with 20lb. (total of 65lb.) but that doesn’t give you the right to huff and puff next to me, cause your girlfriend can’t workout next to you. I may not look as buff and skinny as her, but you know what? I work just as hard and maybe even a little harder. I would love to see the two of you doing 15 Deadlifts, then 20 reverse lunges and 20 alternating Kettlebellswings. And do 4 sets of them. So yeah I am not going to rush thru my workout because you feel the need to give me nasty looks. Cause you know why? I am paying my membership dues just the same as you do. And thanks to the gym and coming 5 days a week for the past 2.5 months I am down 22lb.
So maybe be a bit more considerate, to members like me, cause I got a pretty thick skin, but other members might not and instead of scoffing at them give them a smile of encouragement. Cause it’s mostly likely that they will quit the gym because of people like you.

Sincerely,
Me

2016 Here we go…

Wow, what a start into the new year.

I am proud to say that since November 1st I am down 20lb. I managed to loose weight over the toughest part of the year. But with planning it all paid off and I am more determined than ever to keep going.

I also am toying with the idea of becoming NASM certified again as I do miss being a Trainer. I loved being a personal Trainer and helping others to achieve their goals. But first I must loose a little bit more weight and I would like to learn more from my Trainer Gabriel at Holy Fit in Austin.
He is amazing and I love his support and how he is always there for me. I do online training with him. I think he has spidey senses, cause he always knows when I need a pick me up message.

At the beginning of the year people always make resolutions, I am a bit weary about them since I never seem to be able to actually do them, so I made a list of things I would like to accomplish this year.

  • Spend more time with my kids and husband
  • Loose 80 more lb and fit into my size 10 clothes again
  • Run and finish the Texas Ren Fair Mud Run
    • I signed up for this, now I just need to train on climbing, running and crawling
  • Save enough money to go to the Supernatural Convention in Vancouver in August
I think these are all very obtainable things, I don’t want to set myself up for failure. I know I am doing the right things. I am eating cleaner and better then I ever have, I found my passion for working out again, my depression is manageable, it rears it’s ugly head every so often (like today) but the good days out weigh the bad by miles. 
I am so blessed to have such an amazing support system, my family and friends are amazing. The anger I have towards myself, for letting myself become what I had become is lessening a lot. So this year I wanna make as positive as possible. I want to love myself again no matter what size I am, you know why? I am healthy. I may not be able to run 5K (yet) but I walk it under an hour. And I probably can out last some of the snobby meat heads at the gym easily, since I do 4 rounds of 15-20 reps with my weights. 
I think I am on the right path to find true happiness this year. 
Much love and light
Claudia

Week 6 started with a bang…

I started week 6 yesterday and boy did I start it with bang…

I broke my pinky finger on my right hand. Just a word of advise, don’t try to be all Ninja when your weight slips on the rack. It is a stupid move and landed me at the Doctor’s office. At first they thought it was just badly bruised, but then x-rays showed that I litterally broke the tip of my finger. *sigh, that means I am in a splint for the next 4, yes you read that right FOUR weeks.

My proud moment is, that this happened half way thru the workout, but guess what? I finished that suckers.

Also I found pictures on my phone that we took in August when I weighed in at 285lb. and I took pictures Yesterday at 266lb. I can see a small difference, but people tell me there is a pretty big difference. I don’t know you decide, the top is from Yesterday and the bottom is August.

I am also greatful that my Trainer Gabriel from HOLYFIT in Austin has my back, when he found out about my finger, he said we will modify the workouts so that I can still train, cause guess what doing Cardio for 4 weeks is not happening. 
Now comes the part that messes with my head, so I have done so well for 5 weeks and then this happens. First I feel stupid that it happened, second, how can a 12lb. weight fucking break your finger? and 3rd why? 
Also today was weird, I went to the gym and did cardio, then came home and cooked and took 2 Ibuprofen, casue I was in pain, it knocked me out, I took a nap till 1pm. So I haven;t taken any more since I do have work to do, but that didn’t happen much cause I was in pain. I really hope tomorrow will be better. I did get some stuff put a way in the house, but that was pretty much it. *sigh
But I came up with a pretty yummy eggplant recipe which I will share with you tomorrow.

Week 3, day 3, I hate Wednesdays…

Yup there I said it, I officially hat Wednesdays. Well the mornings at least. Cause in the Evening there is Supernatural.

I woke up at 5:20 and got up went to the bathroom and got on the scale like I do every morning. Some say I shouldn’t, but this is me. This is how I do things.
So the scale showed 275.6 and I was like WTF? I gained 1.2lb since the day before? I was so mad and upset. I went back to bed. Then my voice of reason aka my husband came in and talked to me. He assured me I do the right thing. My body is changing, it’s making adjustments for this new lifestyle. I should be proud of my accomplishments. (I did measurements on Monday and lost a total of 7.6″ and dropped 3.3% of body fat), that I have been working out for 2.5 weeks straight, going from not doing anything at all. So he put a bright spin on things. But I still hate Wednesdays. LOL

So I did get up made breakfast and got myself to the gym. I managed to almost get the whole workout done with all the reps, but then in the last two sets, my hamstrings where like “Are you f*ing kidding me?” And gave me a big Fat

So I am proud that I did get to the gym, I worked out and I burned calories, but the scale is still an assbutt. 
But the victory came later when I put on my hoodie that I had not zipped in a year. And it zipped up. It’s still a bit tight, but it Zipped. 
So #alwayskeepfighting, my story is not over yet. <3

Wednesday… Kick it in the ass

So today is Wednesday as you probably gathered from the title of this.
I woke up a bit grumpy and then realized it’s Wednesday, I felt tired this morning, I didn’t wanna go to the gym. I think Wednesday also known as day 3, 10, 17 etc. is the hardest day for people to find motivation to go to the gym. Why is that?
Well you did a hard workout on Monday and Tuesday and by Wednesday you body yells at you WTF? Stop!!! Leave me alone!!! But don’t listen to it. You are in this for the long haul. You are kicking it in the ass.
I actually went to work ( I print T-shirts among other things) and as I pulled up, my trainer calls me and told me that I can do this. That I can kick Wednesday in the ass. I had also weighed this morning and was up a lb. It’s ok, I looked at it and decided not to sweat it. (pun intended) Cause it’s a number on the scale and not how I feel. So after the pep talk I got, I felt better about Wednesday. It was a good thing I tweeted, that is why he called me.
So I finished work and then went to the gym. I did the whole workout (wasn’t able to do it last week) and I felt good. When I was looking in the mirror, I saw a strong women getting stronger. I was able to see myself for the first time in a very long time and I smiled. My arms feel like pudding and I swear I will have the best triceps ever. But I smiled, cause I liked the person I saw in the mirror. Not what she looked like, but what she represented. And that has been a very long time since that happened.
I am looking at my Gym time as some Therapy as well. I get to dwell on things and think about things and then just let them go with every drop of sweat that is leaving and it feels great.

SO, for all you Wendesday People, GO KICK IT IN THE ASS 🙂